I'm getting so bad at updating this!

So, Drew moves to Muskegon on Friday. I've been kinda mopey about it and trying to hide it from Drew. I let it slip yesterday that I was upset. I can't remember how it went exactly, but I made some comment like, "But you won't be here cuz you'll be at your house..."

I'm kinda thinking that this is the worse that could happen to us. We won't get to see eachother that much and we'll start arguing. I don't know. Maybe it could be good that we won't get to see eachother every day. Fuck, I don't know. I just know I'm gonna be missing him and it sucks.

He's all I've got here....

Here's my story of yesterday.....

I had a really bitchy morning with my brother so I was already in a bad mood. I'm not a morning person at all because, of course, I wake up in the afternoon. Anyway, I have to get up every morning now to take my brothers to Drew's house because the bus can't pick them up on our street for a while. So that sucks...besides the fact that I see Drew every morning. BUT - on top of the beef with Dave I knew that I wasn't going to hang out with Drew because he had plans to jam at Jordan's and then go to the Star Wars movie. So...I was pretty upset. I get home and Dave is still pushin' it. I call Jordan - No answer. Then I sit in my car for an hour or so and my knight in shining armor calls me back. *That would be Drew* I tell him how upset I am, so he tells me to come over.......

Drew meets me outside and is FUBAR....(fucked up beyond all recognition). Stumblin' and such. So we roll up some stoggies and smoke on Jordan's back deck. Since Drew is fucked up, he wants to spill his guts to me. So that was flattering.

A taste:

"I wanna tell you everything because I'm fucked up and I don't have the balls to say it when I'm sober. I've learned so much from you and I'm still learning. You taught me a lot about relationships and love. I wanna say that I love you, but I don't really know because I don't know what love is and I've got a lot to learn about it. I don't think I've ever loved anyone other than Tommy, but you're the closest I've ever come to loving someone."

We talked for a long time. Well, he did anyway. And I feel really bad because there is so much I want to say to him that I can't just come out and say, but I know he knows how I feel and that I just can't make myself tell him.

Somewhere in the middle of all that, we ended up in Jordan's room. Sex could have happend. Once again, no condoms. He said he knew where some were, but I said no. It just wasn't the right time. For some odd reason, I was not in the mood. Un-fucking-believable.

Anyway, my day was still fantastic....even with no sex.

The highlight of my day was a quote from Drew:

"You know what I think? I think Elise really does like Ben. And I think Ben really is gay."

The things that boy says when he's drunk....

Umm...So I haven't had anything new to put in here...that's why I haven't 'updated'.

My list O' Thoughts:

*I prolly won't be going to North Carolina this summer.

*Tommy could be moving back.

*Tommy nakey.....he he..

*I won't be able to see my Drew that much pretty soon.

*Sneaking to Drew's one night...or bunches of nights...

*Seximus with Drew

*No seximus with Drew forever and ever... =O

*Tommy barefoot...jeans...no shirt...orange ford hat...

*I'm bad....not like bad-ass.....like misbehaving-bad.

*Sneaking Drew in my closet 'til Daddy falls asleep.

*Not seeing Drew that much....

*Drew moving in the Summer.........

Here's a sad dream I had the Monday night:

Me and a friend were going to a show that was out in some field behind a huge building. Of course, I was gonna find Drew because he'd be there. There was a big ass line and some guy was bitching that people were cuttin' in. I was kinda one of those people, but I wasn't havin' that. So I started bitching back and said 'fuck it' and we went all the way to the front of the line. The two men that were letting folks in stopped us. I said, "We'd like to get in the show now, please." and my friend puts her arm around me and grabs ahold of my boob with her other hand..I thought, "What the..." but the guys let us in. So I walk behind this building and sure enough, I spot Drew. There was a big crowd and everyone was all pushed together. I decided I was gonna surprise him, so I jumped on his back. He yanked back, but along with him, some chick too. I got off his back to see that him and her were holding hands. I couldn't say anything so I just walked off and started crying.....

There was a little bit more to the dream, but that's all the part that mattered. I woke up pissed off at Drew.

I told Drew about it and I was describing the chick he was with and he goes, "Oh, I know who you're talking about...." Kidding, of course. Fucker..

Woooo! I'm lazy....or not...Drew's been very distracting lately. Moo ha ha. I'm in love! I'm in love! And I don't care who knows it! Tee he he...Oh Elise, we just loves us some Nebbles Werdimus! "Oh, yes we do," you would say. HAHAHA....I just thought of something quite funny. Here goes: We can get even more "code namey" and say PEBBLES TERDIMUS. Nobody would have a clue. But~it would sound like we were talking about little poops....but then again, it would still make sense, wouldn't it?

More stuff for the "List O' Summer":

                    Hula hoops and Skip Its!

I remember the latex pocket, by the way. AND I saw it in the movie y'all made. I got all excited, but you weren't there......

Ooh! Help me out with this! There was une fille that was dans le classe de francais avec me and you. Elle s'appelle Angelique dans le classe, et puis Ashley Young ne dans pas le classe. Elle es laid et gross. Elle a cheveux blonde. Not a prep. That's all I know. She told Nikki to tell me "Hi" one day. I have no memory of her. But apparently she "loves me". Eehhhh....

You know...we are getting so rusty...Frenglish....I love it.